Halo

Entah berapa lama udah gak ngepost sampe kayaknya blog ini udah jamuran gitu ya -_- Gatau kenapa juga tiba-tiba lagi buka laptop dan kepikiran buka blog, ternyata beneran blognya gersang bangeeet. Post terakhir kayaknya udah berabad-abad yang lalu gitu deh ya hahaha.

Gak mau ngepost panjang-panjang sih. Pokoknya cuma mau bilang how unpredictable my life is... Kalo dibandingin sama terakhir kali ngepost, hidupku sekarang bisa dibilang udah berubah 180 derajat. Mulai dari kegiatan, kesibukan, sampe status hahahaha. Gak sadar juga ya kalo waktu itu berlalunya cepet banget. Perasaan baru aja kemaren jadi Smalane, eh sekarang udah semester 4, udah mau kelas 12 dan bingung-bingung mikirin undangan. Baru kemaren kenalan sama temen-temen sekelas, sekarang kayaknya tiada hari tanpa cekikikan-cekikikan sama mereka-mereka hihihi. Dulu kayaknya tiap hari galau banget di rumah mau ngapain, sekarang bahkan tiap weekend pasti adaaa aja kerjaannya. Beberapa saat yang lalu.. Tiap hari pasti diejekin temen-temen "jomblo gak laku" tapi sekarang tiba-tiba udah pacaran 9 bulan. Lucu juga ya kalo dipikir-pikir hehehe.

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Bad day

Have you ever had a bad day? Have you ever felt like everything you did that day was always wrong? Have you ever felt very lonely although you had a lot lot lot of friends? Have you ever felt unwanted? Have you ever felt like you lost somebody you really love and care about? Have you ever felt like no one could understand you? Have you?

I had a bad day today. Very bad day. Like everything I did, it was always wrong. I felt unwanted, I felt lonely, I felt like I had no friends at all, I felt like nobody understood me. I felt like I lost my best friends. But wait... do I have a best friend? I asked myself that question so many times today.

For me, a real best friend is the one who always be there for you, when you're happy, sad, bored, angry, jealous, annoyed, or others. A best friend is someone who you can go crazy with, who care about you like you're her twin, who you can trust 100%, who would tell you any of her secrets, and of course who don't talk about you behind your back.

I kept asking myself that question. And... I think, of course I do have a best friend. But, she's not perfect. Neither am I. And that's the point. Complete each others.

But keeping your best friends is a very hard thing. And admit it. Sometime you're jealous when your best friend is hanging with her other best friend. But I found it difficult too. When you have more than one best friend, and you want to keep all of them without forgetting one of them. And I asked myself again, we can have more than one best friend, can't we? But, do they think I'm their best friend too like I think they are? Or maybe I'm just too confidence to think I'm their best friend?

The most miserable thing today : I realized I'm the kind of person who likes to cheer everybody up when they're sad, but have nobody when I'm sad. Hahaha. Soooooooooooo tragic$20and pathetic.

Maybe I do make a lot of mistake. But I'm trying not to. I wish there were someone who could understand me, forgive me for all of my mistakes I made, and still wannabe my friends even though I'm so annoying and make a lot of mistakes. Of course I want to change, so please help me and don't make me feel like I'm unwanted.

Anyway, I learned a lot today, and I hope I would be a better person after this. And even though there's no one there for me, there's God who always be there :) No need to be sad an lets cheer yourself up, Mira! :D

500 Days Of Summer

I watched 500 Days Of Summer in Star Movies a few weeks ago. I thought it was a romantic love film, but actually it wasn't.

I enjoyed watching first half of this film, but after that I got so depressed -_- And at the end, I didn't like that film at all. Summer was such a very mean girl! How could she be so mean by leaving Tom and marrying another guy when she said she didn't even believe in love or wanna be in a relationship with someone :') 

I just didn't understand what was the point of the author making this kind of stressing film -_- This film was so frustrating...

I kept arguing with my friend who said that this film was very fantastic, awesome, cool, so true, bla bla bla. It wasn't fantastic or cool or awesome at all! It wasn't even romantic! Then she said, "Who said it was a romantic film? Don't you remember what the narrator said? This is NOT a love story. It's a story ABOUT LOVE."

Firstly, I still didn't get it. But then I realized. That film told us about LOVE, what love are supposed to be. That film was NOT a love story, so it hasn't to be romantic. Love is unpredictable and complicated, like what Summer felt. And love does hurt, like what Tom felt.

It would be so much pain for being Tom, I had ever felt being like him. But we couldn't also make Summer loves him if she didn't, I had also felt being like her too. Then I realized, I was a bit depressed when I watched this film because as I watched it, I felt like I was Tom, I felt his pain. But actually, as I realized, I was being like Summer lately in my daily life -_- being so mean, unstable, unpredictable, and I didn't know why.
Not only me could be both of them, we all could be. Maybe you just didn't realized sometimes you were hahaha.

Anyway, here are some of my favorite dialog :')

Tom : Look, we don't have to put a label on it. That's fine. I get it. But, you know, I just... I need some consistency.

Summer : I know

Tom : I need to know that you're not gonna wake up in the morning and feel differently.

Summer : And I can't give you that. Nobody can.

Summer : I woke up one morning and I just knew.

Tom : Knew what?

Summer : What I was never sure of with you.

Wonderful Night ♥

I spent last Saturday at Smala's event, Rendezvous 2k12. 

I wasn't one of the crew but I performed two songs in Kolosal SS. Kolosal SS is the collaboration of Sekbid 8 Smala which are PSGS, SDC, Tari, Karawitan, and Tetris. I joined PSGS (Paduan Suara Gita Smala) which is my school's choir and we performed two songs at Rendezvous 2k12, Rame-rame and Doa Anak Negri.

We practiced very hard for this performance but sadly the mics weren't enough when we sang Rame-rame and we ended up look like some people dancing stupidly with no song in the stage :( I was quite sad but our performance got much better in the second performance when we sang Doa Anak Negri.

On the other hand, I still had a very wonderful night since the guest star of that event is Maliq & D'essentials. I am a d'essentials and I really really loooove Maliq & D'essentials. I first knew this band when I was in 7th grade and I liked it from the first time I heard their songs. 

I first watched Maliq's live show at Sutos. A lot of people told me that Maliq's guitarist was incredibly handsome and cool. The first time I saw Maliq's guitarist or Lale, was also that time and I absolutely agreed after I knew which one Lale is. I watched him playing guitar and I just easily fell in love with him :') Surely he was as handsome as anyone described him to me, even more hahahaha.

Lale is so cute in this photo :3

Back to Rendezvous 2k12, of course I was very excited because of the guest star. But I was pretty upset. Since I wasn't one of the crew, I thought there will be no chance for me to  take a photo with them or even just meet them. I prayed a lot. I just wanted a photo with Lale, God!

And..... my dream came true :">

At about 7 p.m that night, Jicay texted me and asked me if I want to replace her for interviewing Maliq because she must go home early. No doubt, of course I accepted that offer! I would do anything to meet them!  That time, I felt like flying into the sky. How lucky I was! Thank you so much, Jicay!!! :')

So, at 9.30 p.m, right after singing Doa Anak Negri with PSGS, I directly joined the Meet&Greet with Maliq&D'essentials. I was a bit late so I entered the VIP room alone. I was shaking when I saw Lale just right a few metres in front of my eyes hahahahaha.
So then, I took a photo with him. The conversation still resonated in my ears. "Kak, boleh minta foto bareng?" "Oh iya." ... "Makasih ya, Kak." "Iya sama-sama"  Hihihi :"> Well, sorry for being very super duper overreacting :)) I also saw the new keyboardist, Ilman. No doubt, soooo handsome too wkwk.

Then, I interviewed them and asked them some questions. It was such a very coooool and unforgotable experience. I was chatting with Angga, the vocalist of Maliq & D'essentials hahaha. I was so happy :')

I couldn't chat with Angga any longer because they were about to perform. So, I went back and found a nice place with Rani, Divvy, Dicky, Zulfi, Dhanang, and Rahadian to watched Maliq's performance. And sure, their performance was very very awesome. Especially Lale's! Hahaha.

I couldn't stop singing and jumping. And just right when they sang Untitled. Uuuuuuugggh I became so uneasy hahahahaha. Untitled was my favorite song when I was in Junior High School and that song succesfully made me remember a lot of things I shouldn't remember that night-_- 

"Salahkahku bila, kaulah yang ada di hatiku..." This lyrics is just so meaningful. "Kau yang ada, di hatiku. Adakahku, di hatimu?" Hmmm ._.

Anyway, Maliq sang many songs that night. I liked them all. They were all superb! The last song was Pilihanku. My favorite too. Their performance finished at about 12.30 a.m. I got home at 1.30 p.m and I was soooo tired. But of course I was very happy and wouldn't forget that night. What a very wonderful night it was c:

P.S : I actually wanna share my photo with Lale, but Ve is very mean and she doesn't want to send me that photo from her camera :p Poor me :') I'll posted that photo as soon as I get it :3